Cirque de la vie

In this 'Circus of Life' who are you a ringmaster, a joker, a caged animal, an acrobat, a magician, a firefly, daredevil, a balancing act or the audience????

I want to be a magician and bring happiness joy and pleasant surprises to people I love, I meet and I know. I want to entertain and excite them. But right now I think I am a balancing act.

Who and What are you?